"Ad Astra Per Aspera"

I'm back and I still feel tired all the time.
I don't write anymore.
I don't  remember things anymore.
I don't listen to songs anymore.

I can't even type long sms or chats or whatever it is people call it these days.

I'm almost 32 years old in 5 months.

What the fuck happened?

I watched The Butterfly Effect again (cause' it's Ashton Kutchers) but all it did was made me sad.

I'm worried that I won't be able to sleep again like last night where I was so wide awake at 5 in the morning.

What the fuck happened?

I'm planning to deactivate socmed again. This time, for months. 

I don't want to go back to Newton but I don't want to stay here in the office.

Only eth is making me happy for like a few seconds. Maybe that's why I always log-in every 3 minutes just to feel lively.