So, in two months, we're already 3 years. Something to look forward to, that's my way of thinking before. But, at this point, i don't know what to think anymore. So, we're alright now. I managed to "chase" him last Monday.
As i arrived here in the boarding house. I felt like crying. i wanted to cry, really. But surprisingly, no tear is falling. Astonishing!
I decided to write what he had done with me last week. It was really painful.
I love Donnie. More than anything in the world, really. More than myself, actually.
*** It all started that Saturday (August 6, 2011). His cousins, siblings and i were drinking. Even though, I always tell Donnie how i feel about him treating me like shit, it feels like it was not enough. So, this ignorant girl, that is me, drank anything she could drink. It just took, 6 shots of mix/cocktail?, 4 shots of tequila and 2 bottles of tanduay ice for me to surrender. It was my first time ever to vomit. It was liberating and awful at the same time. I thought Donnie had my back, but he didn't even comfort me. Gosh, I was alone, vomiting. I know, Dianne's there with me in the comfort room, but i was expecting my boyfriend, to at least show any sign of care. He failed to do so. But i can't do anything. I was so drunk. I can't even look up. I just want to lie down. To Donnie's shame, he hurriedly took me to his house, and went away after. He went to another drinking session at his cousin's condo. I vomited for the second time at their house. I can't believe he was not there. I don't really feel well. He went home at around 5:30 in the morning and slept. So, we woke up at around lunch time, i smelled so bad (Mixture of sweat and puke is uncomfortable) He went to the gym and he promised that it will just take him an hour, but as usual, it did not happen. It took him four hours and i was so pissed off already. Come on, I look like crap! WTH! I thought he'll take me home so that i could take a bath. But NO. He went straight to MOA. FTW! Tell me! Can you come out looking like that? Post-drunk look? Gosh! He tells me everyday to "look pretty", but that time it's alright to look like and smell like that? Can you do that? Alam nating ikaw mas maarte sa ting dalwa, kaso, isipin mo naman? Ikaw nga bumaho lang damit mo, magpapalit ka na. Hindi pa ba enough na tinulog ko at pinagpawisan ko na yung damit ko plus yung mukha kong pangit na nga, hindi pa maaayos kahit konti?
He broke up with me that Sunday and what you'll be reading below are all his text messages to me for that week...
Be the one to judge. I'm done questioning his stupid child-like behaviors.
17:23 UMUWI kna pls lng tlga!!! UMUWI kna lucena!
17:26 UMUWI KNA! ! ! ! !
19:41 Umuwi kna! Tgas tlga ng ulo m!
23:36 Kim honestly speaking hndi nko masaya sa relationship ntn. Sorry.
August 8, 2011
1:02 Thanks for everything. :) take care always. Nyt. Mwah! :)10:48 Nsa PGH ako kim. Wag m nkong intindihin pls lng. I'm ok.
10:50 kkdatng ko lng. Wag kna mkulit pls lng!
10:56 Eh d sa bahay!
11:12 Wla
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18:41 Hndi ko iniba yan kht kailan. _ _ _ _ _ _ pa dn!
August 10, 2011
13:42 Sa bhay knb? Kain kna ha.15:41 2mwag ka nga now na!
18:35 Happy naman ako pmyag ka mgng frnds tayo. :-)
19:42 Pota 2mwag ka nga!
19:46 Tang ina bhla ka hndi m tlga ko mppsagot ng tawag m!
August 11, 2011
00:32 Good job. Goodbye na tlga kim!2:18 Tang ina tlga!!!!!!! Tngnan m fb ko tom! Un mgcnfrm! Bastos!
6:57 Kapal ng mukha m! Mas weird ka loko! Wag knang mang istorbo pls lng.
11:12 Wla ka tlgang gnwa. Kim tapos na tlga. Tngnan m fb ko hndi ko na tlga bbguhin to. I SWEAR!
18:19 Nand2 nko sm banda. Pag nand2 ka bhay ok na.
August 12, 2011
21:17 Sungit ah. Nevermind dont bother to call. Nsbi ko lng hnhnap ka nla. Naistorbo pa kta. Sorry.August 13, 2011
11:05 Pare what time tayo mmya?16:26 Kapal ng mukha m! Porket 2mtwag ako feel na feel m naman!
August 14, 2011
5:49 Gus2 ko pag gcng ko nand2 ka!13:56 Sorry. I gave you a lot of chances but still you did not do anything. Sorry nbura ko na mga pics ntn. Take care always. :-)
19:47 Pa twag ka nga
21:23 Pwede ko b txt parents m? Rep asap!
21:51 Nmi2ss m b ko?
21:54 Nice rep.
21:57 Nmi2ss dn naman kta. Kaso wla na eh. Bkit d ka nagttxt?
22:06 Ano b? Ayaw m b na ngttxt ako? Smgot ka nga!!!
22:14 tang ina ka tlga ang bastos m!!! gago ka hndi nako mgttxt tlga sayo!
22:20 Just tell your parents thanks for everything. Nyt.
22:48 2mwag ka.
23:17 hndi m alam dhl sa gngwa m mas nggng worst ung atin! Gago tngnan m mssaktan ka tlga! I SWEAR!!!
23:23 2mwag ka nga may sbhn lng ako.
August 15, 2011
5:51 Good morning honey. :) I think this is the last time na twagn ktang honey. I asked for a sign k God pero wla eh d m ngwa. Tngn ko ok kna naman and tntanggap m na dn. I just want to say sorry sa lahat ng ngwa kong kasalanan sayo alam ko mdmi un. I hope that you'll forgive me. Sana lng mgng frnds pa dn tayo kht gani2 and just txt me if you have any problem i will always be here for you. Ingat ka parati ha and pataba ka. Mwah!6:54 Do you still love me? Twag ka nga.
