"Ad Astra Per Aspera"

I'm watching 'You've Got Mail' for the 2nd time around. Perhaps because I've had goosebumps when Dreams of Cranberries started playing at the beginning. Then I kept listening to it over and over again on Spotify despite the situation I'm in right now. 'Dreams' is a love song, you know. Now I understand what Dolores O'Riordan was feeling when she wrote and sang this. I don't remember watching this movie. I might have problems with my short term memory but my long term memory is still intact. Thank G. I guess, I waited for 21 years before watching this movie. haha.

It's 3 am in the morning and I'm wide awake until now that I'm beginning to write this. I used to be amped up in blogging. But since, I have my Facebook and Instagram deactivated, I guess I'll pour my thoughts here. I have work later at 10 am. What a joy! Gosh, why do I feel stupid? This is not me. OMG. It feels like my neurons are dying and my brain is deteriorating. I can't even start a book. Knowing me? I used to read Harry Potter in 3 hours. Now I can't even finish 1 chapter. Ugh! What's wrong with meeeee??? I can't even finish movies. Such a blessing if I finish 1 movie in a day. I'm always sleeping or thinking. I'm not overthinking, though, that I'm sure of. I'm not even consistent in writing when comparing myself 7 years ago. I felt so may heartbreaks in the past 5 years and not one made me want to write. I used to write beautiful poems or blogs after crying 10 years ago but I can't anymore. What will it take?

I really need to exercise. I need to pursue climbing. Then piano lessons. Then reading. Then mountain climbing. Resigning? Then everything will fall into place. I can feel it. 

Ohh next thing I know, I finished 2 paragraphs already. This is nice. Only because of Dreams. God, I love that song. The guitar, the drums... I hope to open up here in the next coming days, weeks, months and years... Let me tell you my thoughts about Money Heist next time. Make me remember Money Heist (from my short term memory. hehe)

Good night and good morning, Dian...

... will continue to watch You've Got Mail until I fall asleep.